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OUT OF CONTROL
Our first response is to try to scramble around, pick up the pieces and cling desperately to anything we can possibly control. Maybe if I look good and my life looks good, no one will see the ugly reality. I was good at this, an expert even. I obsessively sought to control everything from food intake to relationships to my personality and appearance. When life seemed out of control, I felt like if I could at least control something then I would come out on top. It got to a point where I began to get recognition from people for being and looking put together “always.”
ANSWER THE CALL
I didn’t know what to expect and honestly, nothing could prepare me for the things I witnessed there. The open corruption of this place was unlike anything I had ever seen before! I would watch police officers pull up to the girls wanting to buy sex. People were openly having intercourse on the streets. I would see young, pregnant girls standing on the street corners who didn’t look a day over 13 years old. People were robbing each other and pulling guns on each other. My heart broke so deeply.
Beauty in our Brokenness
I decided it was time to feel honestly and deeply. I found myself hurt, disappointed, confused, angry and frustrated at a circumstance that did not happen the way that I had hoped, expected and, even prayed for. Too often, we are so quick to dismiss the feelings that don’t feel good. I learned and I am still learning that God gives us permission to be emotional beings. We can be honest, messy, raw, and undignified before Him. He can handle it all. He prefers that more than when we gloss over our pain